Fear and God Appointments

Fear can at times be overwhelming.   Satin uses fear to keep us from stepping out in faith or to make us question our decisions.  It undermines our faith.

But when the Devil is taking shots at us  at the same time God can put the right person at the right time and place to reassure our faith and to refocus us on God.

I have been struggling a lot this week with a leap of faith we are taking.  The devil has used every opportunity to make me question our decision.  He will make me think about my age, how can we ever afford that?   Is your God big enough to handle this?   Will God let me fail?  Wow that is a lot of money?  Wow I will never get to retire?   These are just some of the questions that have been running through my head.

Friday was a particularly  difficult day when I questioned the decision and was ready to say NO!   That evening I ran into a trusted friend and adviser.  His first question took us into a deep discussion.  He did not talk much but mostly listened to me talk.  Through talking to him and listening to my own words, I realized that my God is bigger than all the questions above, He is bigger than my fears and doubts.  He can move mountains and make things happen.   Amazing how that little God appointment was just what I needed.  I had come to the church a little early to pick up the boys and he was accidentally early, but was actually just on time for what I needed.

I have to stay focused and not let my fears and the head games that the devil plays get me down.  I need to trust that God is in control and will walk us through this road.

That 17th stocking is still scaring me to death but I know it is in His will and that it is part of His plan for us.   More on that in the coming days.

There is a song by For King and Country that I really like right now, "I Choose Joy". 

here are a few of the words:

Lately, I've been reading, watching the nightly news
Don't seem to find the rhythm, just wanna sing the blues
Feels like a song that never stops
Feels like it's never gonna

Gotta get that fire, fire, back in my bones
Before my heart, heart, turns into stone
So somebody please pass the megaphone
I'll shout it on the count of three
One, two, three

Oh, hear my prayer tonight, I'm singing to the sky
Give me strength to raise my voice, let me testify
Oh, hear my prayer tonight, 'cause this is do or die
The time has come to make a choice

And I choose joy
Let it move you, let it move you, let it move you
Yeah, I choose joy
Let it move you, let it move, let it move you

I need that joy, joy, joy, joy

Down in my heart, down in my heart to stay
I need that joy, joy, joy, joy
Down in my heart, down in my heart to stay